JenintheD

From a few days ago...

Today I find myself continuing to try and find myself. To find that confidence - confidence that I some times have, but it is fleeting. I find my stomach churning and my jaw clenching. I care too much what others think of me. Period.

How do you learn to turn something like that off? Or at least down a few notches? It’s like my kryptonite. I overanalyze, let it get to me.

Rationally, I know that I need to just settle, do the best I can do at what I do. Do a good job. Feel good at the beginning and end of the day that everything that happened in between is the best I could do with no regrets. I admit that will be sometimes taking selfish time for myself. Sometimes I just want to rest in bed, feel cozy, warm, safe. At that time I don’t feel overweight, I don’t feel like I am not meeting my own expectations or someone else’s. But at the same time, I need to take action. If I want to be active, I need to be active - at least try, slowly. If I want to be vegan, than it’s my decision and I do it slowly. If I want to read, do it!

Take control and feel good about yourself. Risk feeling good. It’s ok.