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"MDJunction to me is a life saver... when i first was diagnosed with Scheuermann's Disease i wrote a message to a page i found on google, hoping that they could help me.... you'd never know it but that weird feeling (you know that one where it feels like someone actually cares) came over me when i opened my email next day to find that someone on the other side of the world (at the American Medical Library)had read my message while i was sleeping, and there low and behold was the address to MDJunction.... well it is everything to me, i live it breathe it and love it!!!!! I have found many people who are struggling with similar issues banding together to help each other. It is the best place in the world, and i couldn't think of another place to go to meet so many lovely people....

thanks MDJunction" (cinderella)

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Jeff's Diary

my own personal Flowers for Algernon...

wow. rage. it's been a while.

Mar 21 2011

i woke up angry. i've been angry ever since. nothing's going right today. i'm just so totally pissed off at everything and everyone. i haven't been like this since before i went on meds :( almost smashedmy phone and a plastic cup. i've calmed down a little since then, but if my brother sends me one more stupid, nonsensical text message i'm heading straight to new york just to punch him in the face. i'm turning my phone off after i post this and putting this poor thing where i can't hurt it. then i plan to lay low until this fucking mood storm passes. what a horrible throwback to the old days. it makes me appreciate my meds so much more. almost lunchtime here. let's see if i can do one thing today without a total catastophic fail.

Previous diary posts by Jeffrey:

#20
routine is working!! wonderful!
#19
#18
#17

smart kid, ignorant parents, and me -_-
#16
#15
#14
lol who sleeps anymore? damn u facebook!

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written by Dit, March 21, 2011

I'm so sorry you are going thru this rage, it will pass it will always does, i feel for you and you are feeling helpless about yur brother and his behaviors, remember you cannot change him you can only change your reaction to his behaviors, he cannot make you do anything. smaashing things is a good outlet but next time have a pillow or a sponge ball handy, or paper you can write something on or color draw someting, that can get feelings out too. Great you did a diary yu can also do a post and you'll get support immediately here, hang in there i'm around pm me anytime i care...((((Hugs))))

written by Jeffrey, March 22, 2011

i'm much better today. i did beat the hell out of one pillow, poor thing. but, yeah, yesterday was unpleasant. i just felt overwhelmed and wanted to hide from the world.