i hate my life so much at the moment all i really want is to slip into a coma and wake up and everything will be ok once more. i want my pain to f**** off altogether, i want my kids to stop whingeing i want people who dont even knoe me to mind their own f******* business and not to give medical advice when it is very clear they have no idea what your pain or life or problems are like and i want to tell the government to "come and live my life for a couple of days" so that they can see just how hard it is to be disabled by chronic pain and have 5 kids crammed into a 2 storey 3 bedroom villa, and i would like them to see just how difficult itis for me to get up and down the f******* stairs without hurting myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!arrrrggggghhhhh i am a good f******** tennant why is it so much trouble to give me a transfer to moove to a house that isnt going to cause my health to deteriorate further and so that all of the kids can have a bedroom and not have to sleep on the f********* lounge like an unwanted guest ( he's had to sleep there for 5 months, since his mum kicked him out, he's only 14 i might add) arrrggghhh i hate the system it is scamming us and every one i know who cheats the system gets given everything it seriously sucks. soooooooooooooo muuuuuuuuucccccchhhhhhhhh....... thank you for caring enough to get to the end of this f******** up diary entry, if you got this far id appreciate it if you knew how much it means to me that any body even gives a shit.............thank you cinderella