the sky is very grey here today and it has been raining, the tiny droplets of rain are lingering on the rose petals and they are glistening...

 it is really pretty... the smell in the airis cool and fresh,

 however i would have loved for it to be a nice sunny day. my husband promised the girls we would go to the pool after we picked them up from daycare yesterday.... but of course he didnt feel like it yesterday afternoon, so that really upset them as they were all looking forward to going...

i managed to talk him into us going out to dinner with the girls, (seeing as his son and my daughter were not here last night)

well he agreed to that even though it meant having an early dinner, as i wanted to take them a little earlier so he wasnt embarressed by their behaiviour as i know he would have been as they can get a bit excited when we eat out of the house (as we dont do it very often) so anyway we done that and it was lovely... the girls behaved really well, when we got home they played for a while and then had a bath and got ready for bed and watched the first part of the movie that was on tv until it was time for bed...

but when we picked the girls up yesterday when we said we werent going to the pool today after-all, they were still upset and hubby then told the girls that we would go to the pool tomorrow, if it were a nice day... well it isnt a very nice day for the pool, not that it really matters if it is a nice day or not as it is an inside pool, the water is heated and lovely anyway...

it is not very nice out side at the moment but the girls are out playing anyway while it has dried out a little and it isnt raining...

they are edgy and grumpy thouhg as they really wanted to go to the pool... i wish it could just be sprung on them that we are going to do something as hubby always promises to do things with them but then lets them down because at the last minute he doesnt feel like doing it... i mean if it werent for his mate coming over and giving the girls hugs i dont think he would either... except the baby who is the apple of his eye... for now anyway.

i dont get it he doesnt seem to want to be anywhere near us to have fun.. why is this so?? i dont know what is going on in his head, i wish it were something i could help with, but heck we dont even talk that much anymore..

i want just for ince to have him say we are going here tomorrow (and it be something that the kids want to do) and actually foolow through and do it..

i am sick of the let downs, i do nearly everyting with the kids and he had the hide to say i suck at it, at least i try...

dunno, if i am making too much of it but it is nagging at me anyway..

the kids are trying to spend time with their father right now, out in the yard and he keeps pushing them away, doesnt want them near him.. so of course they are upset and what do kids do when they are upset ???? they be naughty, so that is what i have to put up with... i bet that the only time he talks to them all afternoon will be to rouse on them for being naughty?? and why are they naughty?? they want some of their dad's attention, and they are not getting it... then, later we will end up arguing over it...

vicious cycle isnt it???

gotta go now thanks for putting up with my venting