well i vomikted a bit too much the other night i was vomiting blood so i called in at he Drs and was sent to hospital to have surgery to see if i had an ulcer or perferation in the lining of my stomach, i have now got a migraine from the anesthetic and my mum doesnt want the baby anymore i was hoping they could have the 3 little ones for the week end so i could recover from the surgery but no, they are bringing the baby home  so i am sure i am going to feel even worse when she starts crying and i cant get up to her but anyway as the saying goes is my family "shouldn't have had so many kids if you cant look after them" i wish i could put them all back. i had no meds yesterday either because i was to have surgery and then after the surgery i was asking for them and still no one was interested in giving me any so i feel like ive been hit by a truck i am sore from head to toe i want to die im in so much pain. anyway that's me im going to go back to bed xxxxxx