they want my help, just not my bossiness...lol

i know i am bossy, but i have a strict routine and if anyone is going to mess it up, it want to be for a good reason, like someone is dying or inhospital....

i dont know, hubby thinks i am being too hard on his 14 year old (this was made evident the other night when he tore strips off me)... hell i think i could be harder and still it wouldnt make an iota of difference, sometimes he is so on task and helps out without me having to ask, but this was totally unexpected... i thought we were about to go to bed and have an intimate evening , but no there was the fight that he instigated over crap... i treat all the kids pretty much the same, his included, i love kids and i try to do whatever i can to help all of them, lord knows they need it... their mum is so unstable it isnt funny, so i try to give them structure... and if that is wrong then he can do it... after all they are not my kids are they??? i constantly get rememinded of that when their mum starts to fling her crap, im sure shit is about to hit the fan again soon though things are too quiet... or maybe she is starting to realise that we are serious...

i dont know anymore, just taking it day by day... today 14 year old is going to visit his mum, so that should be good for him.also my 12 year old is sleeping over at a friends tonight so it will be just hubby me and the 3 little ones, our kids.... we seem to love spending time together with just those kids and it should be lovely, they get to have just us... hubby suggested that we take them out (both of us) to the pool and then maybe go out for dinner seeing as it is only us... it sounds lovely... sometimes we get so caught up looking after the kids and him working (which he does work hard as a labourer i respect that ) we just forget to ENJOY the family. it doesnt help when i have this stupid disease that no one knows anything much about, and he has a stuffed back too.... oh well i need to learn to be more PATIENT... but he needs to actually trust that i only have 14 year old best interests at heart and i dont single him out or pick on him.. and if i am going to be questioned or vindicated for my parenting again, he had want to have some SOLUTIONS to the problems, and a family meeting will occur to let everyone know what is now expected of them.(or me).. anyway i dont take too kindly to being told my parenting sucks, so hopefully i can move on, and accept his lame ass appology. i would love to go out with OUR family and have a nice time, the girls dont notice the diference but this would have been the family if we didnt have other kids to other people... anyway, i hope it is nice, i must have had adequate replies on tuesday as no more has really been said, since i said i am happy to go walk if it is all too bad.. anyway i do my best, that is all you can really ask or expect from anyone...

xxx