well it has been a tumultuous week, i have been a nightmare to be around... i've been on a real downer unfortunately, and i think i'm slowly coming back to happy thoughts and hanging onto the only shred of hope i have left, the orthopeadic surgeon. i would like to share some good news [hopefully it is good] i think i will get the disability help i have been trying hard to get. although i have had to answer a hole shit load of unfair questions and prove that im not well, but i am hopeful that in the long term future holds good things for me still. i am learning that there are some services to help me with my rehabilitation, i am hoping that i can get the assistance even if it means a bit more effort and possibly even some pain but i'm hoping that in the long term it will help. i have been trying to go to the pool and walk in the water to maintain and perhaps eventually even build some muscel strenghth. i hold a small candle of hope right now and hope that it doesnt get blown out. i have been trying to get some help to fight for a housing transfer, for a house that doesn't have so many stairs, and hopefully with enough room for my step-son to have a bedroom as he has been living in the loungeroom for 6 months. well i can only try anyway. hope everyone is well. i have been trying to get my meds sorted out again and i am hoping the new anti depressants i get next week stop me from being a shyco bitch as i have been completely out of control recently.