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Jun 30
2008
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that's it im really sore, coming off oxycontin as it is making me sick but im sorexxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
arghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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well here are my thoughts on my struggles and triumphs, i hope to share my story honestly and help others through their journey. |
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Jun 30
2008
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that's it im really sore, coming off oxycontin as it is making me sick but im sorexxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
arghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Jun 28
2008
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:) Hi very happy to hear from you, sorry your life is under alot of stress, i can understand where you are coming from my life is much the same unfortunately and my husband and i havebeen fighting i have been really sick annd my dr has taken me off the oxycodone which is my main painkiller so my life sucks plus the eldest child got food poisoning so has had to have the week off school and go to the hospital then on friday night i had to go the hostipal after having a huge row with my hubby and slept all day yesterday now i have to work out how to manage my pain as i cant have the oxycodone any more becuse it is making me really sick arghhh it makes youu want to scream real bad
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Jun 25
2008
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2008
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2008
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2008
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2008
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May 26
2008
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May 24
2008
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there isnt that much info available about scheuermann's disease but after reading one person research results for a different disease it has tempted me to try to do more research. i justfound a page in a google search and noe i cant stop crying, my future is destined to be severe and bad if what it says is true..i hate this disease and once again i want to die............arghhharghhhharghhhh i am screaming but no-one can hear me f******************* it all hate this disease
i want to die tonight in my sleep...a nice easy escape from the reality of my unlucky f****ed up future i hate every doctor i ever saw when i was in foster care that just said i wanted attention can i sue them for assuming i was crying out for love??????? i hate them all every single one.......i couldn't give a rats ass if no one loved me i was in real pain and they all just shrugged me off. i hate the system that let this be ignoredxxxxxxxxxx
i hate what i am destined for and i hate everything about this horrible world, why oh why what did i ever do to deserve this?????i was a street kid, i was pregnant to a complete loser when i was 16 years old, i have educated myself, i have worked hard and given so much of myself to the community and helped so many people along the way,,,,,,,, why what did i do wrong????
i hate this disease...............
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2008
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2008
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2008
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2008
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2008
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May 10
2008
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well i feel like i have been to hell and back this last week, i have been on an emotional roller - coaster to say the least. i have had interveiws and heaps of questions being asked that have reallymade me feel like crap. i have had to prove that i am in agony and had to demonstrate what i am capable of and what i cant do in order to get some financial assistance. i have also been a real pshyco at home and i have been a real cow to my family i am totally ashamed to say. i have been to the bottom of no end so i guess the only way now is up. i have been lucky not to destroy my marriage in it all. i have been blessed with the friendship and support of a few people who have helped to improve my mood because i have been really down. i have now decided that i am not going to allow this disease to beat me anymore. i have to stay positive and hang onto any shred of happiness i can find. i am hoping that this will help me to stay in control some how. i feel that recently i have totally lost controll of my life with this disabily. thank you to all who have suppoted me though this site and i would like you to know that i really appreciate the support you have given to me. to the paticular person who sent mail to me i feel blessed by your friendship and unconditional support, every time i think of that mail or talk to some one about it , it brings a smile to my face, thank you xxxxx
that is me for today xxxx
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May 08
2008
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2008
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2008
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2008
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Apr 28
2008
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Apr 28
2008
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Apr 28
2008
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hello to all who read this entry. i would like to tell you what i know about scheuermann's disease, which isnt much and there is not much data available that i have found either so that frustratesme as well.
* pain radiating from my neck to my lower back, caused by a curvature of the bones in my spine. apparently they developed at different stages. the back discs grew faster than the front discs causing the curve i dont know the exact degree but apparently mine is mild. i would hate to know what severe feels like as im in constant agony. my doctors unfortunately dont know much about this disease which is incurable. i take loads of pain meds every day which help to some degree thankfully. i have to keep a meds diary of what i take and when, this is useful at the visits to the dr as she can then work out what is going through my head at different times of the day. it helps me to keep track of my good days and my bad days as well as finding out triggers to my pain such as shopping or certain home duties. if amybody happens to know of any useful info on sceuermann's please send the site address my way every thing ive looked up so far has just been a description of what causes it. nothing useful like things to assist with
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2008
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2008
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2008
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