| Nov 20 2008 |
I had a bit of a scare this morning (again)... I was driving to work at 6am per my usual schedule and (since it was dark) I didn't notice the coyote decide to cross the highway until a little late. Luckily for him, I did notice with enough time to react... swerving violently to the right, then over-correcting violently to the left, then the right, etc. until I finally recovered. I know things like this happen all the time to people with perfect site but it still shook me up, and I can't help but think I would have seen it if I didnt have my "night issues".
I have been wanting to go see my specialist for quite some time now, but some minor obstacles lay in my way... I am both anxious and nervous to go see him. I really want to get an update on my FOV but at the same time, I don't want to find out that he thinks I shouldn't drive at night anymore.
Back to work...
I am a preschool teacher and struggle sometimes with whether or not I should even teach because just two days ago I was out on the playground and I was walking up the sidewalk when a little boy came out of nowhere and tripped over my feet...it scared him and me to death. He fell on the concrete and got scraped up. I was so upset because I, like you, can't tell what happens because of the RP and what wouldn't happen could I see better. It was humiliating and I don't think I will ever be able to get his face as he looked up at me. I just didn't see him and ofcourse all of the other teachers and all of the kids were outside with me.....everyone saw everything...ugh!
I just wanted you to know you're not alone. Struggling to know what occurs because of our RP and what would have occured anyway is so difficult. I find myself asking myself the same question!