it is time i log my thoughts which have been good for the most part. i try not to drown in self pity over this bp thing. i am happy my meds are working and i have been in the middle for about 8 monthsnow. it is scarey anticipating the next high or low. it really irritates me when a family .member flips over the tone of  my voice or acts as if i can't become frustrated when i feel like some employer or medical doctor isn't being fair in my eyes. it's kinda like..."you ought to be happy you have a job and just fake a smile so you don't get your ass fired again" enough said right now and i am glad i started a diary on here.....ps i just love mdjunctions")