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Apr 26
2008
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Today was the first day I really realize that I was "sick." I was so tired and all my muscles ached while I was planting flowers. I can't believe that I was in such delinal. Why? Iguess I thought I could stay strong. I cried last night for the first time since this whole month started. I needed to let it out. I just couldn't in front of my family or friends. They are wonderful and have helped me stay calm. I won't let myslef feel bad about the flowers and trees that I have spent a fortune on. "IT'S MY LUPUS GARDERN!"
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written by hshoe29, April 28, 2008
I felt like ass most of the day yesterday. 2 espisodes of perfuse sweating, labored resp (like a dog) and rapid hr. I think I even sent myself into a panic attack. I was soooo scared and starting crying infront of my mother. My muscles were twitching, head headed and generalized weakness. I am started to get tired of being tired!!! 
I want to make it a whole 24hrs without a "spell." Everyone says take it easy and relax. RELAX??? How the hell am I supposed to relax??? I feel like I have lose control of everything. 
I want to make it a whole 24hrs without a "spell." Everyone says take it easy and relax. RELAX??? How the hell am I supposed to relax??? I feel like I have lose control of everything. Leave a comment
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