It's been 3 days since I came to terms with the fact that I am a sex addict.

 It's hard to hear the words come out of my mouth and for some reason even harder to write them. I have no problem letting the strangers of the internet know that I have a problem but my family? Some of them would be shocked but think it is "way cool" and the others could care less because they already had their suspicions.

I've only told a few ppl and the ones that I did tell were not surprised at all. That confirms my self diagnostic even more.

Today was particularly hard because I tried soo hard not to do things that I normally do. I regularly browse craigslist for new post that maybe close to me. I did do that a lil bit today but not as much. I didnt answer any ads, that's a plus. I usually text some of my "FWB" in the morning just to make sure that they are thinkin of me, I didn't do that today. I didnt look at any porn but I usually don't do that unless I am really turned on already.

I did however post on this site a few times, read a lil bit of Patrick J. Carnes book, Don't call it love and Out of the shadows online. Those will be the next books that I purchase.

I am currently reading Always Daddys Girl: Understanding your fathers impact on who you are by H.Norman Wright and I finished reading Every Womans Battle by Shannon Ethridge months ago. Shannons book was my 1st clue that I may have a sex addiction.

 I have no emotional bonds to any man in my life. With God's help I hope that that changes. I am not blaming my father for how I turned out but I know that he and several other men in my family helped make me the woman I am today. I am extremely stubborn, witty, strong, self reliant and suspicious of all men but I am working on all that.

Well its getting late and I am trying to be in bed by 11pm

good night all