|Mar 18 2010|
This is the first time I have been in a relationship since I have been stable. (Fully 100% and medicated) It's a very different feeling. As normally in relationships, I get very obessed in the beginning than, by that drive the person away. I am trying so hard not to do that. It helps that she has some of the same tendancies as myself. Everything just feels very comfortable, I really like it, I have never felt this before.
On another note, it's weird when you look back and you THINK you were stable in that moment, and you realize now, you SO were not. My last relationship, I was extremely hypomanic, very intense, very over the top. Even though we broke up for different reasons, I am pretty sure it contributed to it.
I am determined to make this work, no more of my old habits.
so freakin' happy to be jobless.
it's been a rough one . . .
oh no, not panic. but, yes to panic at the disco
sometimes i don't want to wake up
i've got troubled thoughts and the self esteem to ...
advice i should have listened too, but didn't.
hello stability, welcome to my life.
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