Its been a rough rough rough past few days for me and my family.  Saturday night, me and my sister were driving home from work at 2am.  My truck is registered in my broehter's name andhe is currently suspended so i get pulled over frequently.  Anyways, we got pulled over, and they were telling me that my brother has a warrant out for his arrest for unpaid fines.  So they said they were going to my house to arrest him.  I got upset and knew my mother was there at my house as well.  So I aksed my sister if we should tell the cops about mom as well.  She said yes we need to tell the cops about moms warrants as well and of course because she is out of control.  I asked the officers to not turn their sirens/lights on because I didnt want to be embarrased with my neighbors.  They were decent about the whole situation.  My sister and I couldnt watch my brother or my mom leave in handcuffs, so we waited by a nearby park.  So i am at the park with my sister and i get a call from my house, i answer it and its my mother..she tells me that steve was just arrested and I say ok.. I seen 2 of the cop cars leaving and I ran up to the other cop car and they ask me if the lady in the house is Audrey?? I say no her name isnt Audrey.. Than we tell them its Lois..They did a search on Audrey and realized it wasnt her and then they did another search and realized it was Lois... (Mom tried using my aunt name..her sisters name)  So they went back into my house and arrested my mom..I told the cops to not bring my brother to the county and that i wouold be there is a couple of hours to bail him out.  So I go to the police station and bailed him out.... He tells me that mom called her other sister and she is on her way.. So i wait for her to come.. A few hours later she finally comes and I tell her about mom's problem and how we are having a very hard time dealing with her.  I asked her not to bail out my mother and she agreed that this may be the only way for the time being.  It hurt so bad but we have to excercise tough love with her.  So now its Weds. and she is still there and she calls my aunt everyday collect but my aunt does not answer. 

The other day, me and my cousin went through my mothers purse..(she lives in my apartment and has her things in the closet in the living room) Inside her purse was a homemade pipe, empty tin foil, empty wax baggy, and other shit.  I was so angry! This is in my house!! Bad enough it was always in her house when we were kids and now she is using in my house!! Of course I threw everything out.  I went and cleaned my brothers bathroom (my mom always used his) and found a little measuring spoon with residue on it and my brother and cousin put some on their tongues to see what it was..not too sure they both said their tongue went a little numb..it could have been powdered soap who knows...  Saturday afternoon before I went to work, me and mom had an arguement about everything and I heard she was fired from her job (the last time she wasnt working things like money and jewerly were missing) so i confronted her about using and she denied it all..she denied everything and I confronted her about her lies and of course she denied that as well. So after she was arrested sat night, i went into my house and seen a letter she had written me..(it was all about our argeument ealrier that day) she said in the letter that she did in fact lie to her kids and she did use drugs recently about 5-6 times.  The first time she got high rencently was because of me and the second time she used was because of my sister!! How fucked up is that?? Telling your kids you get high because of them?? What a coward!!!  When we had an arguemnt she asked me what type of drugs did i think she was doing...she asked me to tell her where the needle marks were.. I told her I didnt know what she was doing but I know she was getting high.. she said well i dont snort it and i have no needle marks.."so what am i doing?" well now i know, she smokes crack and still does dope.  since i seen it all in her purse!!!  she always tries to manipulate us!!

So since our arguement and her being taken away by the cops, he rfamily has been going through tough times.  We are all worried about her and her health.  She has severe anemia, hep C that she got 20 yrs ago, and of course her withdrawls!  I know today she is sick, very sick! I feel for her and I just hope she rememebers that I love her so much!  I hope she is keeping strong and I have been praying fer her.  I love her so much!  A part of me wants to go run and bail her out, but I know it will be worse if I do.  I know she is angry that she is still there and noone has come to get her.  She has never been accountable for her actions.  Its time she is and grows up.  I called the jail and asked what her charges were and all she has on her is contempt of court ($500.00 bail)..She did have a bail for $2,000 and she didnt even go to court yet..what happened to the others?  I am hoping that one of her freinds dont get her out.  I know she has court next week.  She cant have any visitors for another week which is good anyways because my aunt wanted to go see her but i told her to wait a few more days because mom would be in no shape to see her and she may say things to her out of spite. 

I will go visit her if she is still there next wednes.  I am scared but also want her to know that we love her! 

Now my aunt and I are trying to clear my aunts name.. She has warrants out for her because my mother has used my aunts name 3 times int he past 2 years while being stopped by officers.  Hopefully this can be a quick proccess so they can put these charges on mom...It will be better to do this now while she is in the county than later when she gets out. 

If she does get out sooner than we hope, where will she go?  Will she rebel more?  We are all afraid for her life at this point.  I am afraid she will die! I am praying her body makes it through the withdrawls.  (being she has been on methadone for 20 years and drugs as well)

My mother is not a strong person.  I am scared for her!