Keep thinking about this guy, more and more. I have 3 jobs, I volunteer, I have kids and housework and a husband...still feel a sense of boredom, want excitement.  I contacted this massge therapistwho is a very attractive young man.  Thinking about getting his female colleague to do my massage instaed...looking for someone to call me cute so that it will negate all of the stuff that folks told me years ago. Yeah, i know "But, your husband loves you--he thinks you're beautiful' does he really or is he telling me what I want to hear to keep our family together...a guy out in the street, so to speak, has nothing to loose by telling me the truth. "Hey girl--you are ugly. maybe if you fixed your hair this way, you'd be more attractive" No one will tell me anything. My parents, my psychiatrist all tell me the same thing, but there has to be something wrong. I never got the adoring smiles and things that women get...what is wrong with me. I see the doctor tomorrow morning. I hope I don't do anything stupid tonite. Going to do my volunteer work in 45 minutes....Help....