I was watching TV last night  (Criminal Minds) and I started to think about this guy again, about writing him a letter telling him I much I like him, and asking what he thought of meand although I know I can't be with him, I just wanted to know if he ever felt that way about me...then I started thinking about whispering in his ear and telling him that I could make him feel really good...just crazy stuff, and then I remembered that I was trying to cut down on the Seroquel so I'd lose wt.

Well, I went and got my husband, had a little romance with him, and then I felt a little better.

I took my Seroquel and tried to think of where it would lead if I wrote this guy a letter.

I'm trying to put my "passion" into the lecture that I need to do next week for the medical staff....I can't even crack the door open with this guy....I must stay away from him and do everything I can to keep my mind off of him....