I've been walking non stop today..in the rain with my daughter's ipod...I feel so free walking around campus in all black..leather coat..black tights..black skirt.....I'm so tired of thinkingabout these guys all the time...they probably don't think of me. If my ex-boyfriend did, he could send a letter to my Mom's house. Guess he figures we're both married with families, no need to rock the boat.  My poor husband doesn't understand. he knew I had to leave the house this weekend, so he told the kids to let me alone.  I ran errands, did everything conceivable to keep busy..still thinking about the massage therapist, the coworker from last year...my thoughts keep flashing through my head. I can't keep still. I can not focus at my day job. Do ok at my evening job cause i can run around and stay physical. Maybe I'll call my pdoc...he doesn't have a clue, but I'll call him anyway.  My husband will be here to pick me up soon. No appetite...good, i can lose a few pounds and my BMI will go from 27 to 25.  Great..maybe I'll look sexier and the massage therapist will email me. maybe the fitness trainer will like me .......gotta go.