Well this is my first step in communication. Don't ask me why I can do this when I usually cant communicate in any way shape or form. I have recently moved in with my cousins, and for most of mylife before this I lived with my grandparents and I was emotionally abused by them and we never talked about our emotions or anything else the only time they really talked to me was when I was in trouble. Well now my cousins are trying to get me to talk and communicate with them and I just cant do it, my cousin actually bought me a notebook and pen set for me to keep a journal to see if it would help me. Well it didn't I cant really explain why but I cant even write about y feelings in a journal. And why I can talk about them on here I don't know why, maybe its because people on here have somewhat of and understanding of what i am going through.

So now to the present, I have recently been diagnosed as Bipolar and I am very wierded out but the whole thing, I dont know how to tell people and I dont know how my loved ones will react and to out it straight out I am scared for myself and the people around me. Today I had a depressing day maybe tomorrow it will be better