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Hubby died from an OD July 3rd 2008. Am I crazy? - JackieBlue's Diary
View Profile This is my new diary full of emotions that I go through from one day to the next. I need to pour my mind and heart out. I can't keep all this to myself or I'll become more depressed. I'm going through phases of mourning and greif. So some of what I say may seem crazy and far out, but it's all me being honest. I chose to do this online because I'm so vulnerable right now and I hate crying in front of strangers. So here it goes...



Sep 08
2008

Am I Bipolar or is it Anxiety & Depression?

I think have bipolar symptoms but my psych doc has me on antidepressants and anxiety meds and just calls it depression and anxiety with crying spells and anger. Am I missing something or is the fact thatI'm not energetic and manic the reason for this diagnoses. I also have trouble concentrating when people talk to me, I tend to get distacted if the person talking has an interesting characteristic on their face or even if they have an accent, I'll start listening to the accent and not whattheir saying until they ask "You know what I mean" that's when I snap out of it and say "Uh yeah" I hate when that happens. I know none of us are doctors but I could really use some advice or learn the difference's between illnesses that I may have been misdiagnosed with.



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written by singingangel, September 08, 2008
It sounds a lot what people who are grieving go through. That may be why the dr.just gave the anti depressant. There are a lot of overlap of symptoms between things. I hope the anti-depressant helps you. maybe a counselor might also. It is hard to lose a spouse. There are a lot of changes you have to do. i wish you the best. hugs
written by JackieBlue, September 08, 2008
I got the antdepressant when I began dating my husband and have taken it though out the relationship, I haven't been to see the doctor since my husband died, I don't know why. I know I should go I just haven't. I'm afraid he'll put me on meds to make my so called visions or signs stop. I don't want to tell him about the signs I see, I'm scared he'll just say I'm skitzo, maybe I am mildly I don't know. I guess I just don't want a new label with stigma.
written by kimminentdanger, September 09, 2008
STIGMA - A huge fear for lots of people. The thing is, toots, you really need to nip this thing in the bud. Unless you tell your doc the full truth, you'll never get the full treatment...

Try not to worry about labels (I know, easier said than done)... Everybody has their unique design and this is not something you asked for... It is a real medical disorder, just like diabetes or asthma. Once you accept that, you can start helping others to accept it too!

I wish you nothing but tranquility.... Kim
written by JackieBlue, September 09, 2008
toots...LMAO!!! I've always wanted someone to call me that ...that or dollface or peaches It always sounded good in black and white movies so why not in real life? smilies/cheesy.gif you know what you're right about STIGMA, it's not like I have to carry a sign with my diganoses, I guess I was just afraid that it would lower my self esteem even more just knowing I had more on my plate. But true, if I'm completely honest I can get treated and possibly feel better? Imagine that...

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