Honest Thoughts

My boyfriend and I broke up. He is a recovering alcoholic, and said that he needs to focus on his sobriety. I am in complete shock. We live together, I met his entire family, we have dogs together...I take care of his daughter, and have become a mother figure to her.

This happened last night after I expressed some concerns about his ex-wife. Since then I went to work, and he hasn't been home. I checked the online history and he has already looked for apartments.

I am utterly hurt, confused. I feel betrayed and sad. I love him very much. We were building a life together. We even talked about having children.

I have been talking to my friends who have been very supportive. They tell me it isn't my fault, which I know is true- but that doesn't make it hurt less.

I am still going to push through and look for affordable counseling for myself. I got into school for the fall, and I am also going to keep my attention on work as well.

I love him so much.