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Jun 02
2008
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Have an English essay due this Wednesday that I've been trying to write for months now but I haven't even started it yet. I need to get this essay done, I need the English mark. But I just can't manage to focus or concentrate enough to get it done. I just don't know what to do. I've been having small panic attacks all day because of it (that I've been able to get under control ok so far), and now I'm really wanting to cut because of it. I know it won't help me at all, but I still have the urge to cut so badly. It's been almost 6 weeks now, can't let myself give in, but I want to so bad. It's still so hard.
I just don't seem to be getting anywhere with this. I thought things were getting better, but now they're getting worse again. I know I should go see that counselor, but I just can't get myself to go, I just can't do it. I need to keep fighting this, but I just don't have the energy or will to fight it anymore. I just want to give up on it all, even though I know that's not what I should do. . .
How do I get through this?
written by CarolynT, June 03, 2008
written by mamanordy, June 03, 2008
Debbi
I so remember those days of feeling overwhelmed and wanting to do well in school. And I also remember wanting to please people around me so badly and trying to be perfect even though I knew I was far from it. Nevertheless still trying.
Just write it the best you can even if that means a failing grade maybe instead of cutting yourself you need to just fail and trust that God will provide for you. Maybe it means you will only get a C. Maybe God is trying to open your eyes and your family's eyes. That is usually why He allows us to go through trials. Don't give up APril even if that means failing you will and can get through this trial and the many more you will face in your life time. If you have a Bible open it up to 1Corinthians 10:13 in the New Testament of the Bible it talks about temptation. And memorize it when you can. God has so much more than we realize planned for our lives we just have to turn it over to Him and let Him be our strength during our times of weakness.
April, I am writing your name down on my calendar to pray for you today and tomorrow. Even if you get and A on your paper or end up cutting yourself I pray that you will seek God's help. A counselor is great to, but God is the great physician and the greatest counselor.
And you can't do this alone, you need to ask God for help and invite Jesus Christ into your heart because we are all great sinners in need of a great and awesome Savior. Keep on 'fighting the good fight of the faith' that is from
1Timothy 6:12 in the New Testament of the Bible.
I would love to hear how it all turns out.
I'll say a prayer right after I send this message.
Love in Christ, Carolyn