I'm new to this group. The reason I joined is because I'm so tired of dealing with my husbands manic-depressive disorder alone or trying to share my feelings with some one who has no clue whatits like to lose a loved one to this disease time and time again. As I write this I am again at a stand still as what to do next. I already have my husband in therapy and he just started meds for his disorder. He also drinks and does drugs on top of everything else. He tries to self medicate I think. He says the drugs the Dr. gives him don't work and he just wants to drink. When he drinks he binges BAD !! Hes only been on his meds 5 days and he can't handle it already. Hes had 2 episodes in the last 5 days. He was drunk when I got home from work yesterday and wanted to be dropped off at his nephews house so he could party some more. My husband is 38 yrs. old. He acts like hes 17 when he goes into what a call a SPELL !! When hes Manic he wants to drink. He goes into the depressive mood swings when drunk. He is better when he smokes pot until he runs out then he is back to the depressive mode. When sober and just NORMAL!! he goes into mood swings and is so miserable sometimes you can barely stand him. I never know what I'm going to be facing from one day to the next. Its absolutely crazy how he can be one person and all the sudden be someone else. Like a split personality. He didn't come home again last night. The rule is if hes drunk to please stay away. I can't stand it and now the therapy and new meds are going to be scrapped. I just know it. I've been living on the edge with this for 13 years and I don't think I can do this any more. I'm scared If I divorce him, he will die. My 13 year old son would be devistated. What else can I do? I'm at the end of my rope......