Have Hope

I miss everyone-- no, not cured. it took a lot for me to get back here. I am down in the dumps, - I'm not sure why. Anyway- I'm very anxious lately-- so, I'll be trying to getback here. It really helped me. I saw the date that I was out- exactly 2 months.. well- I'm panicky lately because el nutso here is having a about 15 friends and neighbors here Sunday for a "gold party"-- yep, 6 weeks ago it sounded like a good idea. Now, I am tired, aching ( worse than project kitchen" and trying to get thru the days... I will be back. I have to- it's going to be a long winter and I know this is a place for help. &.. I just wrote this having a blaster of a panic.

I may not reply to e-mails-- I'm shaky on the computer- just getting thru work is rough.. & not feeling too well - not sure if it's because of panic or I'm doing myself in with "what if"- does "what if" give you a back ache - headache- body ache and all over sick worried feeling-- yes, I guess it can!! --( plus I've stressed and cleand and moved furniture the last couple weeks around here.. I am stressed and stupid for having this party-- Oh well it will be over and I have a hunch the stress will begin to fade. If not, I'll call a doc.. don't want to-- I have some concerns and.. later with that.. Ok- I made it here :)-Thanks for being here......

Hope everyone is feeling ok- doing ok-- living life and all good. I'll check in-- I need to get back here. Consider yourselves hugged...