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depressed again

May 10 2011

Feeling pretty down today. I was fine awhile ago and now I'm so down it's hard to do my job. I thought for a moment that today would be a good day to go to the walk-in psychiatrist place however.. I realized that I don't have benefits and neither does my fiance at the moment, and we need to be able to afford his medication. We wouldn't be able to afford anything that the psychiatrist decided to give me, so what's the point?

I can feel my mood continue to drop, and there is no reason for this. By the end of the day (5 and a half more hours to go) I might not be functional.

This is really starting to feel like what happened when I first when into hospital because I was scared I would do something, and when I got out, I did it anyways.

Previous diary posts by Drey:

feeling it hard tonight
Thoughts
June 26 & 27

June 25
June 24
June 23

Comments (3) Add Comment

written by ridingthewaves, May 10, 2011

Drey, Please don't go to the doctor just because of the cost of the meds. They can work with you. Make sure to tell them that you can't afford anything. I myself went to the doctor this morning and the meds they gave me cost $3.96. My BPSO doesn't have any insurance. He is on seven meds currently. They cost me around $12 a month. His pdoc knows that he can't afford expensive meds. He gave him samples to get by and now is on a patient assistance program for all but the two we have to buy. Please don't let money be the reason that you don't get the help you need. Any free clinic should be able to help show you what resources are available. Please help yourself. I am sorry that today isn't going well. Feel free to PM me if I can help in any way

Hugs,
Melissa

written by Drey, May 10, 2011

Thank you very much for giving me some hope in this. I think I"ll try and go to the walk in psychiatrist tonight, depending on how my SO feels. I don't want to be a burden on him, which is what he makes me feel like sometimes, and he hasn't told me where this clinic is located.

written by dizzylicho, May 19, 2011

Please follow his/her advice. My sister does not have any health insurance either and she joined a clinic where they provide medical/medicine assistance. Please try to do that asap. I hope you'll be feeling better soon.

All my best to you,
Dizzy Licho