Hello.

I am completely afraid for my life. I am paranoid I have some kind of cancer or scary disease. It's making my anxiety go up just thinking about it. It's making me angry, why didthis happen to me? I was a perfectly ok girl before I took this stupid France trip. I don't even know who I am anymore. Going from day to day is just such a fucking chore. I don't want to see my friends or family, yet if I sit at home alone I get all panicky and anxious. I can't eat, sleep, or be normal. I don't know how to shake this and I want it to be a quick process. I just want to wake up every morning, and be happy and excited to live and be alive. I used to be so optimistic, but now it seems as though a gray cloud is hovering about my head. All I can do is let the storm pass.

Symptoms today: A slight panic attack, maybe about a 2. Terrible tension headache, ringing in the ears and "visual snow".