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Apr 20
2008
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I wake up in the morning and I see the sun, but my world is dark. It only takes a second for me to remember everything that the night allowed me a few minutes of peace about. I couldn't sleep. I was up from 4-6. Finally got up at 7:30 and went downstairs. I have no peace about anything. I want my husband with me every minute, like I can't function without him. I have never been like this before. I have always been independent and strongwilled. I used to put my three kids in the car and drive to Georgia (12 hours) for the weekend to see my sister. Now, I don't like to go to the mall by myself. I don't even sit on my own porch. I am so sad. I want to do better and be happy, but I can't. I just go through the paces, doing what is expected with no inner feeling at all, but all the while I am smiling on the outside. Everything is getting on my nerves. I don't want to talk to anyone, listen to the radio, watch TV. I cannot stand noise of any kind. What is there to do?
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Sandi, I haven't heard from you in a while and I hope you are ok. I haven't been on much lately. I have had a really painful time and all I want to do is sit around and watch tv or nothing at all. I don't feel good at all. Usually this time we are fishing and planting a garden but I don't want to do much right now. Monday my dad wanted to go to an auction which is something we both enjoy but I didn't feel like going I hurt so bad. I also missed church on Sunday and that always makes me feel bad like I didn't get my batteries recharged over the weekend. I haven't seen where you've been on very much either and I just hope you are doing ok. I know all this can get very depressing and I am hoping the sunshine and spring will help all of us liven up a little. Miss hearing from you. Jan
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