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"I have been struggling with Fibromyalgia, Bipolar, Anxiety, Post traumatic Syndrome for quite some time and pretty much going it alone. I stumbled across MDJunction by accident. I stayed in the shadows and just watched for four days and then I joined, feeling relieved and excited to have found a safe place with alot of folks that I could relate to . It's proove to be medically and emotionally
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	My hope is that this becomes a written record of my recovery. I have been in a two year nightmare cycle of pain that I can't seem to get off of. I have a loving family and a close circle of friends plus a career which I loved and would enjoy going back to. My prayer is to return to my old life as the new more gentle, understanding and compasionate person I have become.

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Nov 30 2008

I wonder is this is what the rest of my life will be like. Taking meds, living in pain and searching out people to fill in for my inabilites. It's funny, when I am invited somewhereI have two choices, 1. Politely refusing or 2.accepting the invitation and medicating myself before I go. Or I always have the third option going without meds so I know what I am saying. All the while, suffering in pain. My daughter went back to college today. Finally, I was able to drop the act and let my pain out. I almost didn't make it. Hiding my pain I mean. I don't want her to worry.

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written by singingangel, December 01, 2008

I know it is hard to deal with. I have to really see what I can still do to feel useful and serving God. I have found out that going to church and Bible study,etc has helped me greatly. People tell me they admire me because I am not allowing my pain to stop my spiritual growth. Remember that when you are at church that you are an inspiration for others just because you are there.
It is hard for our children not to worry. Fibro wont kill us. It will give us pain and limitations. Know I care and am praying for you. hugs

written by mamanordy, December 01, 2008

I understand what you mean. I am so tired of acting.

written by Bittersweetie, December 01, 2008

I know what you mean about the act. It takes even MORE energy to do that. You're a good mommy for trying to protect her, but eventually, she's going to see you on a bad day. Its possible that seeing you in such a moment of authenticity won't frighten her, but allow her to feel closer to you.

written by Pixiedust, December 04, 2008

I hid my pain from my family for awhile. My husband finally got a glimps of what I deal with. It actually brought us closer. My daughter was scared seeing me so sick she's only 13 but understands I have bad days and I will be okay.

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