I can't sleep.  I hurt all over.  I amm afraid to take any pain medicine in case my brother needs me.  My brother is a wonderful man who is also an alcoholic.  He was in BettyFord earlier this year, but that did not go as well as we had planned.   He live is California and is a very successful real estates salesman.  He decided to come to where I live because it is a small town and he thought it would be a good place for him to recover.  He has done well here at times, but last night he got so drunk that my husband had to get out of bed and help him up the stairs to go to bed.  Now he has screamed in his sleep all night.  I don't know what to dot with him.  He walked to the liquor store when I was having the dogs nails cliped.  You cannot leave him for a second. 

I have gritted my teeth all night and now my face is locked and my neck and jaws hurt like crazy.  My husband is a doll for putting up with this.  I think I am getting worse physically.  I hurt incredibly.  My arms and legs are like lead.  Even typing is an effort.  I have to lean my forearms on the table.  If this is the rest of my life, I'm not sure I want it.