Why is it that I doubt everything?

I doubt the fact that my b/f loves me, that people really care, that the meds are working.

I am starting to feel like I don't matter. The b/f wouldbe so much better off with someone less complicated than myself, even though I love him so much. I don't feel depressed, I don't feel like hurting myself but I just don't feel well.

I take my meds which have grown from two to now 5 or 6 different pills a day and night. I seemed to be more forgetful.I've know lost ...ha ha the remote that controls the surround sound, I have lost 2 pair of shoes, my car charger for my cell phone, numerous telephone numbers that I really need.

Ok either it's gremlins or me. I could handle gremlins cause that would make me feel like I wasn't losing my mind.