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Apr 11
2008
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So far I'm not worth the time to be on this earth. I have tried to do this so long and nothing has come of this.
Today I was turned down for food stamps. Because my b/f makes about $100.00a day but is NOT guarenteed 40 hours a week as a sub contractor. I've been flat broke for the last 3 weeks. I don't have money to even drive to the gas station. Rent is coming up $575, car payment $317 and not to mention food. I really don't want to do this anymore. I'm a burden to my parents and friends.
I'm sitting here looking at all this medication that I can't even afford to buy. I'm out of ativan which i know i need I'm out of abilify which I can't pay to have refilled. What more is there to do? Nothing. If i knew where to get drugs at this point i would sell them for money. I do have sleep meds wonder if anyone would buy them.
written by jolamom, April 11, 2008
written by curran17, April 11, 2008
Call that doctor and ask for help...
written by geekGirl, April 12, 2008
I wish I could take you for a ride through my memories. After my accident I lost everything, including my condo. I was homeless for three months. I had no money to eat ( I had to choose between my meds and food (meds won out). I barely held onto my car, if not for the good grace of my ex-husband.
I went and applied for disability and they sent me to the food stamp place. What a humiliating experience. As if my self-esteem wasn't damaged already, I had to sit in a room of people with whom I had nothing else in common with. I wasn't knocked up at 18, or have 15 kids. I was sick.
Here's my suggestion to you. First, call your local churches. They will help you out. I called the Catholic church in my area, and they came to my house and gave me a gift certificate for $50 of food at Safeway, and he wrote me a check for $100. This wasn't something I could rely on all the time, but they were there when I really needed them.
My next suggestion is to come up with a plan. I know you feel completely overwhelmed by everything going on in your life right now, but this is the most important time for you to think about how you can get out of this. I was in school at the time all this happened, so I got pretty crafty with my student loans, grants, and scholarships. It may sound strange because if you are having problems with working how could you go to school? I did exceptionally well in school even though I couldn't sustain a job. My doc said this is pretty typical for bipolars. school was a form of expression I couldn't get in any other way, plus it gave me some self-esteem. Art was something I was particularly drawn to (no pun).
Remember that your response to your situation is very normal. Not having enough money to eat or keep a roof over your head is more stressful than anything else in life. You are having a normal reaction to an abnormal situation.
Angela
Psalm 136:2 "Give thanks to the God of gods. His love endures forever"
I do not attempt to presume your spirituality, but no matter what - know there are those out there that care about you and believe you are worth the price Jesus paid for us. You are worth the love and healing grace that God bestows upon us and you are worthy his unfailing and never ending love.
Love & Blessings - K