Ok so I switched the Abilify to am and then the lexapro at night.

I was told to kind of wean myself off Wellbutrin so today I took the Abilify (9am) Ativan (12pm) now I have taken Lexapro (11pm) and since I'm still wide open just taken 2 Hydroxyzpam (12:20am).

This is the first full day of all the meds. We had some bad storms today so pretty boring, took a nap after most of the bad weather passed. Got up around 8pm and eat some and watched a movie but somehow i'm still feeling really bored and wanting to get out of the house.

B/f tried to take me to the movies last night, I was all for it until it came time to go and I freaked. I got to thinking about it being a Friday night and how big the crowds of people would be and once again offered an excuse that he totaly did not buy. I told him, that I just didn't see anything I wanted to watch even after I got on the computer and talked about seeing the movie "Jumper" and making him watch the trailer for that and "the bank job" but like I said he still didn't buy it. It took about 30 mins and finally the posturing and ringing of my hands for him to realize I was having bad anxiety about this whole thing. So finally came clean and low and behold, just like he said he wasn't upset about me totally backing out on leaving the house.

I think in his own wierd kinda way he probably would be very good at being a therapist, if you could have sessions in between paintball games...ha ha

i talked to my parents and they are totally cool and still worried about me.

my dad said he really needed a live in house keeper....lol But the bad news is my mom just got laid off Friday. I asked him if he still needed a house keeper and he said of course....lol

well that's kinda it for now. will let you all know what happens tomorrow.