Well I go back to the p-doc tomorrow. I feel as though I have a lot to tell him but not sure if I can.

I want to tell him I still have all nighters then sleep for about 4 to 5 hrs and go all day again. I need to tell him that I still have a hugh problem with strangers and today I found out that I have a problem with people I know as well. I was in Wal-Mart getting meds and two people in front of me was a co-workers dad. I stood there for what seemed like forever then just thought to myself..."i just can't talk to him, I don't want him to see me." so I got out of line and walked around spying till he was gone. I felt so insane.

I had tunnel vision it seemed everything was blurry around the edges and clear in the middle. Probably a side effect from the sleep aid really. I hate, hate, hate, hate going places by myself. I don't know why but I just do.

When I walked into Wal-Mart I actually stood in the middle of the isle for like 5 mins trying to remember why I was there. I just kind of wondered till I remembered.

It's almost like I need something to get me jump started in the mornings after taking the sleep meds at night. I get up alright I just can't get motivated...ha ha

I feel like I hate sleep. I feel I'm missing things, I feel like i'm losing time or something. If anyone reads this and you know what i'm talking about please chime in on this one.

I was mean to the b/f again today. I woke up and was so mad that he was here instead of being at work. I just never talked to him until after lunch. It has just been one of those days I just wanted to stay in bed.