Foxylady's diary

i dont think the state docters know what they are doing! they have my tegretol at 1400mg already i cant see a thing out of my eyes because of blured vision but they just keep uping my meds! my depressiongot so bad that i just stayed in bed not lifting a finger even forgetting to take a bath on a regular bases, my children did not want to stay with me and what does goed old doc do? just give a higher dose! so yes in this week my brain decides to wake up and go over board on the alcohol. thats me, i dont go shopping or spend alot of money on clothes, i go drinking. i feel over excited my heart racing and i dont know how to calm it down so i use alcohol, but it only works for so long. then i use sleeping tablets and that also works to calm me down. i feel like my brain has been asleep for a few months and now it just woke up....