pain is...good?

Well, I guess it must be. Cuz I've got to be at about a 5 or 6, but I'm feeling mostly pretty darn good. I think the Herx is about over, finally. I felt ok Saturday, finally. My mood has improvedsignificantly. I think I've made some decisions about what I'll be doing at the doctor's office. I changed my appointment today to Thursday and cancelled that Thursday appt. I'll just have to ge the PAP done another time. I've got the better part of 3 mo. to do it, anyway.

I still need to do some research on the labs, but I have some time to do it now. I want to see what I can get done, and we're gonna do things my way, or we're not gonna do them at all. I did get the Diflucan dispensed. I resorted to pleading and begging and crying to get what I needed. I'm sure they are tired of me, and that's fine at this point. I'll take what I can get. I'm pretty much tired of them. I don't really see this going a lot farther, but damnit, I need proper care, and I DESERVE it. I've come to that decision, and I'm going to fight for it, but if I have to be a bit manipulative to get it, so be it!

Anyway, Saturday, I felt ok, but we stayed in, didn't really do much of anything but watch TiVo. Then Sunday, we got out. I felt like showering down at my parents' house, which was nice. Longer shower, got to really do my hair, which was really nice. Shampooed and conditioned it. Oh, it felt wonderful! We went to Olive Garden and used the gift card Bev gave Ed for his b-day, so that was great. It was a wonderful meal. Oh, talking about wonderful meals! We had Outback for dinner on Saturday. We totally shouldn't have, cuz it was a major splurge, but it was sooooooo good. The steak just melted in my mouth--I haven't had steak that good in ages. Maybe it's what helped me feel better on Sunday? IDK, but damn, I'm not sorry! I'll make some sacrifices later in the week for that one.

So, Sunday was good. And I got this cute little thing for the Halloween Camp, for the kids. It's gonna be fun. It's this little Wish Upon a Star thing. It's got these numbered stars, you put them in a bag, the kids make a wish, pull out a star, and the number says whether or not, or when, their wish will come true! It's gonna be fun. It'll go with the whole theme of what Sara's gonna have me do at my station. I can't wait for that this weekend. Fri/Sat/Sun. That'll be nice. It definitely gives me something to look forward to, as well.

I've been writing so much that my wrists really hurt, especially my right, cuz I was actually writing free-hand, not just typing. And lots of headaches lately. I noticed the last couple times I took the Vicodin, it caused migraines. That's not so good, especially since my stomach's so torn up, Vicodin's the only pain meds I can take besides the Ultram I'm already taking. The Ultram's not terribly effective, either...That's just great.

But other than pain, I'm feeling so much better. I guess the Lauricidin and Samento are really working. I'm on my 3rd continuous week of Lauricidin and the 2nd of Samento. I think I'll go up on both of them next week, around Saturday. I think that'll probably start a Herx again, but I'm willing to deal. It'll be good for me, anyway, right? Builds character, LOL...I can see my attitude is much better! :)

But Ron definitely has a good theory. I'll have to look back on my previous entry and see if my pain was worse around a full moon. Cuz I guess this time was, and I wondered why it was so bad, seemingly so close to when the Doxy was given. I guess I just wasn't thinking? IDK...

Ok, well, headache's getting the best of me, and I really don't want to take Vicodin, cuz it's not gonna do much for me. So, time to wrap it up!