it's been a very long time since I've written in my diary, but here I am again. I am 2.5 months out of having a hip replacement and here to tell you it hurt like hell!!. Now the other hip is really acting up but I have to wait a year to replace it since there was some complications with this. I developed blood clots and so it's just a longer healing process, plus the so called good hip is now my bad one.
I was not fully prepared for the mind set i should have had going into this surgery. Everyone told me it was a piece of cake and it wasn't. There was intense pain for about 5 days and then you could deal with it. The meds made me so loopy I couldn't remember how to put one foot in front of another. It was not good at all for me. Plus I kept getting anxiety attacks that wouldn't go away. I felt so helpless.
I am so glad it is over with and know the next time what to look for and I think it will be better. Or so one trys to tell oneself when they have to confront the same thing over again.
It is not easy to recover from something so major. I do not like to sit so much or be so tired all i wanted to do was sleep.
no bending, no laying on that side for 8 weeks, no more than 90 degree angle and on and on. The summer flew by and I'm glad of it
I wound up gaining weight when I thought I'd loose it and the doc said it's normal to gain the weight because you are really do nothing during that time. So, that adds to a growing despondency and depression. All I wished I could do is take a pill and wake up 6 months later.
i have been feeling so blue for the past week and now I must be seeing indigo....I cry at almost anything and am so overwhelmed with life and all the things that go with it. I can't seem to think straight or remember things or stay focused for more than 30 minutes. Then I need to get up and do something else. I can't sit still.
I have so much to do with paperwork for social security and social services and insurance and bills, and...etc. I feel like I'm having some kind of breakdown and no one called and told me about it. I'm on my 3rd sinus infection and get these awful headaches and have been plauged with anxiety attacks and all I can do is pray, rock and wait. I wished I could run away, leave this all behind
I know that the darkness will rise and i will again see the light of day...but i wait, i rock and I pray.
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