Finding Contentment

It has been awhile since I posted and so much has happened, but right now I and just trying to keep positive and moving. I have noticed a reduction in burning and other sensations through outmy body. So I am trying to understand what is happening and cope with it. Life is finally starting to make some sense, might not be what I thought it would be but it just is. I would like to think the meds are making a difference, as the days pass I am feeling a lot more stable, neither though I am still fluctuating it is easier to manage, not so hi not so low, but I hate the nothing, the no emotions and then my BF didn't handle a situation well, as it was I was struggling with how I was feeling towards him, as I was feeling nothing and it doesn't feel right to feel nothing, now I am so unsure, I know I have to allow it time, but he gets inpatient with me. It just takes me time.