Fibromyalgia the start

Oh man I do not think I can take this pain! With the weather changing it is hurting me beond my tolarence level! I hurt so bad I want to cry all the time. I hate the fall, I hate the pain, I hate my body!

The doctor I am seeing right now is a jerk! He is telling me that my blood sugars are okay that they are running in the range of 150 qnd above.  I know this is not right I hate the way he doesnot listen to me, and I have to keep going back to see him almost every week.

I know its time to change doctors, but who to see is hard to pick.  I have government insurance so I have to se

The weather is warmer and my Fibro. is better, but for others the fog and pain is worse. The Fog still gets me some days. And I have some pain but its not as bad as in the winter. When the weather keepschanging its the time when I hurt the most. I am beginning to dread spring and fall.

Today seems like a semi-good day. I am not at this moment in pain so that is good. I have been in pain for a while now and the break feels good. Now I should be out walking but its too cold still.  Plus where I live in the North East got dumped on with snow. Here we got 10" its a lot of snow! I wish it would go away now. I hate the cold and snow, funny when I was a kid I loved going out

I am having a hard time with all the stress in my life right now. My husband is in the hospitall for the Second time in two weeks. Plus I have caught some kind of infection in my stomach thatis the cause of Ulcers. Man what else can go wrong, oh yea, the weather here in New York is bad and the combo of all the stuff happening has sent me into a Fibro. flair.  Right now my li

Hum .....today I feel like crawling back into bed! But I am not doing that I am going to work at the library today. Even though I am hurting so much taht I could cry! I know I need this to keep going and not let the Fibro. win.  I am a survivor so I will survive!!!!!!!

This year has started badly for me. I have lost my best friend. He died out in the snow alone!  He was found on Monday afternoon, he was only a littles ways from his home. The police think he had a heart attack and was dead before he hit the ground. 

I am going to miss him so much!!! His loss hurts me more than any other pain right now. My heart hurts and my brain hurts and I h

Hum the fog is setting in. I am having a bit of trouble thinking straight. Maybe it's because I just spent the last 24 hours entertaining 5 children. I must be crazy!!! Now I am paying for it. Thepain has set in and its getting worse. I need to go lay down and relax, maybe it will help so the pain does not get worse.

I  can't beleive how much I hate all the holiday stuff now. I feel like I am so ready for it to be all over and done with. Usually I love baking and making candy for everyone, but this year Ijust do not feel like doing any of it. It is showing in my lack of intreast. I just want to sit and read a book an excape into a world where I feel no pain and no one can hurt me. HAHAHA what a dreame

It feels so much better to not be in pain. Today and for the whole week I have been feeling much better.  But I know it will not last. So I am enjoying it while I can! See my new Doctor today so hope I can get myself on tract!  We will see.

Thanksgiving day has worn me out! But I am up late because I am in too much pain to sleep.  My hands are hurting and I am having shooting pains everywere.  I wonder to myself if this is normalor not. I think I am pushing myself too much everyday. I just want to give up!

I have been told I have Fibromyalgia and its a releif and a very scarry  time for me.  I have not been told what will happen now. I have taken some books out of the local Library to read about this. 

 I have found some days I am okay and others I can't hardly move.  I also have been having a great deal of pain in my arms and hands.