Feeling the urge to purge it all--emotionally

Well, my streak has ended. I have b/p twice now, since I wrote about my 2 weeks without. My triggers were all around me and it was just too hard to resist. My husband was out of town, which is a majortrigger for me, and I had a really hard day with my daughter. It was one of those days where everything was going wrong, she was into everything, and it was just not working. I also hit a new low and used soap as a way to get myself to throw up. Oddly, I am not too disappointed in myself. I am disappointed, don't get me wrong, but I am not letting these 2 times undo all my hard work these past two weeks. I just got to get back on board again. The soap is not good, I just had read that is a guarenteed way to get myself to throw up, since I was having trouble, and it worked. I will not do that again. I worked really hard these past 2 weeks and I am not discounting that. This was just one bump in the road, and I will start again tomorrow. Next time I will make it to 3.