|Nov 10 2008|
I was informed yesterday by a group leader on another forum that people didn't like the fact that I posted to nearly every topic, sometimes my posts were only one word, and that my "humor" wasn't appreciated.
I was infuriated by this and decided to cancel my membership to that forum, since I do not believe a support group should be limiting or restrictive to any of its members, and I felt as though I was being censored, which is something I firmly object to.
Then, come to find out from this same group leader, that it was not just that particular group that felt that way, but it was also from members of the Fibro group - the one where I have always felt welcomed, at home, and free to be me.
After hearing this, and in trying to recover from the shock of it all, I posted a topic on the FM forum, explaining what I had been told, and inviting those who had any problems with me to PM me so we could work things out. I certainly don't want to come across as offensive to anyone, and that has never been my intent.
Well, the good thing is, I've been getting nothing but beautifully worded shows of support, care and concern, both in PM and on my topic. But I have yet to hear from anyone who doesn't like my posts or feels offended by me. This is extremely disappointing to me. And frankly, I don't know what to believe now.
Plus, the one person I respect the most is disappointed in me for feeling that I needed to post my topic in the first place.
Frankly, I don't know what to think now. I am in tears over this. People, please....if I bothered you enough that you felt you had to go to a leader to complain about me, then have the strength and conviction to talk to me! Nothing will ever be mentioned in public, nor will names be brought up, or bad feelings harbored. I want to fix this thing. I want to be able to be me on this group, the way I always have since first joining. I don't know how to be anyone else. I can only be the best me that I can be. But I can't be my best if people have bad feelings towards me and won't even give me a chance to fix them.
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