|Mar 26 2011|
Mood disorder is very frustrating! I don't think I will ever get used to being blamed by my wife for her irrational behavior, anger, frustration sorrow etc.... You see the mood sets in andI can see it coming but no matter what I do I cannot brace myself for the words my wife will use against me. I love her to pieces and my whole life revolves around her but sometimes it appears she does not feel the same. In return and to show her gratitude to me for being such a supportive husband and good father to her girls I am often accused or made feel guilty for things I am not guilty of or for things I have not done. The mood sets in a like a demon that can convince her beyond a shadow of a doubt that I am the reason she is hurt or angry, sad or confused. And no matter how I try I can not convince her that I am not the enemy and I am not to blame. I look at her and I try to figure out why she would want to be with me if she truly believed that I am such an aweful person that causes so much pain for her. I will admit I need to address this in a stricter fashion as if I allow it to continue she will hate me more then she loves me. I do not want that and I cannot keep allowing her to convince herself I am to blame for her irrational feelings. I will have no self esteem left and behave like a beaten puppy who pisses every time a hand is raise.
how do you convince someone that they have mood disorder and that mood disorder is playing games with their thought process to the point they are becoming abusive?????
I don't have an answer yet but I am working on it!!!!
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