TGIF? TBNH! (Too Bad None Here!!!!)

Totally spent. Physically, emotionally... just spent.

I had to be in the office today (I only have to be in 1 or 2 times a week). ; After a sleepless night, I finally crashed about 5am and was back up and at the office by 9am. Then it gets tough!

Problems, conflicts, non-stop STUFF today. I got a TON of things accomplished. Unfortunately, none of them were on my to-do list.

Now I'm home with the kids (wife is out for the evening). I feel like I'm just having to ignore things that are on my mind because if I don't I'm going to just cry and scream.

So I sit here and WHINE to the world because that is what it's going to take right now and I'm not even mentioning 1/2 the SHIT that has taken away some piece of my sanity and lifespan today. Bits that, once taken, are never returned to their rightful owner.

I have TOTALLY fucked myself with choices that have gotten me here. Irreversible decisions. Bells that cannot be un-rung. Choices I was ill-prepared to make. 90% of my life was set and matched before I ever had a clue I was Bipolar or alcoholic.

I'm told that sometimes in life, you just have to eat this elephant one bite at a time. I've noticed that even that single, sour bite is more than I can bear some days.