Cheesy song title, not-so-shallow underpinnings of a bad morning.

I feel horrible today and as the clouds come rolling in over Austin with the promise of rain, I feel like it will be better.  My surroundings will soon be more aligned with my mood.  Somehow this this brings a touch of harmony to a bad hour.

I have voice mails stacked up; friends, customers, associates, family.  I don't want to talk to any of them.  I feel completely alone and I don't want to go through the disappointment of connecting with people and still feeling completely alone, which is the usual chorus.

My mind is racing this afternoon.  I have project work staring me down, reading, journaling and ideas floating around in an already crowded mind-space that I ought to write down before they disintegrate.  Many important things that I just can't seem to make myself pick up.   

So I sit, drink coffee while whining about myself on a web post and yes, waiting for the rain.