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Back on the Bottle

Jul 20 2009

So, my depression has been severe lately. Really bad. On top of it all I've been trying to maintain sobriety and haven't had a drink in two years. Then the other night I gotto thinking about why. WHY am trying to stay away from something that can help take the edge off? So after a lot of consideration and discussion with my wife, I'm drinking again on a trial basis just to see if it helps me through this rough patch.

I'm not talking about getting drunk or partying again, but just relaxing with a cold adjust beverage on occasion to take the sting out of things. We'll see how this goes. So far, so good.

Previous diary posts by undertoe:

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Dual Diagnoses Paradox
A Personal Story
A looking in view
Odd Behavior

Town Cryer
"I of the storm"
swing (again)
"Filtered"
Boundaries Unseen

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written by Dit, July 20, 2009

I wish you the best. You never know, maybe having the odd drink will agree with you. Even for myself, when I do have the odd drink, i do have to be careful b/c its very tempting to overdue it. Glad to hear you stopped for 2 yrs. Part of finding out if we have a problem is trial and error.