Earning my Irish angel wings back

Yesterday I broke up for good with my eight year on/off boyfriend.......and it's so weird, because everything was finally working. In a strange way I think that helped me finally walk away. I knewfor SO long that it could work, that I think when it finally started to work it was some sort of weird closure. Even though it was my choice, and it was time (I still believe that) i'm devestated that i had to do it. I feel like I just ripped my safety net right out from under my feet and i'm VERY vunerable right now. But maybe it's time to step into my future (like being placed with the job placement agency) and to actually be an adult....and like I told him, I don't think I can walk into my future and move forward if i'm still in a relationship from my past. So i'm not ok at all right now, but I still believe it was time, and that i made the right choice.