Each Day A New Day

I woke up this morning with intense anxiety.  As I lay in bed trying to go back to sleep, I noticed that the anxiety increased.  I've recently begun re-reading in a more intense mannermy book on DBT (Dialectical Behavior Therapy), more specifically the part which deals with distress tolerance.  This will teach me to distract, relax, and cope.  I'm beginning to learn how to distract rather than avoid because avoidance will only delay the overwhelming emotion (anxiety for me).  There is a root cause of the anxiety and I'm trying to learn what all the triggers are.  

This past week I've been dealing with headaches, migraines to be exact.  As mentioned in a previous journal entry, I ended up in the emergency room this past Tuesday.  Even yesterday I was dealing with a headache for part of the day.  It's hard to tell where the source is coming from because I've also increased my Equetro by 100 MG.  I'll see how the next few days play out.

In my conversation and visit with my pdoc this past Friday, we reconfirmed that I am in a mild mania most of the time.  Since that is the case, it makes it that much more of a challenge to regulate some behaviors, feelings, responses, and the like.  I run more hot in the anxiety stage which in turn cause some behaviors like becoming more frustrated, over-analyzing, and looking at the end picture when there are so many factors in the middle that could go in several different ways.  In a nut shell, I worry about things that could happen before they happen.  I'm operating on the premise of "if" .  Thus, it would make sense that my body's natural response would be to produce headaches, cause more anxiety, and see the vicious cycle emerge.

Also, my sleep patterns are almost constantly off on the weekends.  During the week I receive much better sleep.

Well, I'm going to go work on some distraction so I can utilize what skills I have to deal with the overwhelming emotions that is producing the anxiety.  Additionally, it doesn't help that I am on a couple of days of sleep deprivation.  I can see the benefit of having a regular routine!