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Apr 17 2012

i do not like dealing with the drug pushers, it is not the answer for me, i tired of hearing about how this or this drug will help solve my mental health problems, or go talk to someone who wantsto charge so much money just to talk about my illusory past. no know my past is in the past, it is my memory bank, i just need to delete it and solve how to deal with virus that infected it, some guilt,or shame thing. got to find it 1st .;;;;; as the world turns, starting sound like rest of drama here.

Previous diary posts by lken:

awoken early
are our eyes shortsighted?
in the maze again
going through apathy
the call

is looking into a mirror flat?
feel like a void
dreams and the other side
the cure
are our lives processed by our subconscious?

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written by jstsIm, April 17, 2012

Oh Iken, sorting out our memories often brings drama, drama we share, looking for others who have gone thru the same experiences, trying desperately to find ways to let go, or at least know that all of the blame is not ours to bare. Some choices we made were bad ones, but who did we hurt the most by these? Yes, ourselves...Otherthings were not done thru our concious thoughts, but matters of circumstances or the direct motives and actions of others. These we seem to take the reponsibility for too, when we should not. I will take responsibility and own my part, but I am now at a point where I can also say , No , that wasn't my doing but someone elses. I can then choose to let it go, confront the other party, or just accept whatever as having happened and is part of who I am...
You are on a very tough road presently, maybe it is time to rest by the river and just watch the world pass by in its beauty for awhile, putting aside the task of searching for self for a short time...Maybe then, you will be able to see thru brighter eyes and a more open heart, one that will forgive not only others, but yourself?

written by lostangel777, April 17, 2012

I am going through some inner turmoil right now dealing with being Bipolar and chained to meds. I would love to ZAP the melancholy away without medicated. Each day I feel like I am slowly turning into a ZOMBIE. smilies/shocked.gif

written by lken, April 18, 2012

i got a call from the past, set me off, could not sleep. i was thinking meds just to settle down, i took a busbar, for anxiety, talk the talk, walk the walk so much for that, i feel being a zombie is tough, busbar zombied me, when being out of touch with self in no mans land, we do whatever to survive.

written by jstsIm, April 20, 2012

There are so MANY things I admire in you! No matter what comes up, no matter what stresses, triggers, or "calls from the past", you step up and handle them, and share with us your experience, and your solutions! I think YOUR WONDERFUL!
Reba