|Jul 05 2009|
I'm in such a funk lately, I need to map this out a bit for clarity.
First thing i'm pissy about is that I got all excited about possibly taking the LDN, even tho I tried hard not to get excited it snuck up on me, I was imagining what I would do, hell in my mind I had my house cleaned, my dog shaved and all my crafting supplies sorted and arranged. After my appointment I am no closer to that then I was before I went. I am always running into the same damn brick wall and I am so damn tired of it I want to scream.
Next I send my daughter off to spend time with her sister and the jackbutt boyfriend calls her and gets her all mushy about him again and she wanted to come home almost as soon as she left. She wore me to my nerves begging me so I am letting her come back a couple weeks earlier....not because of Justin but because her sister is less concerned about cleanliness than my poor daughters asthma can take. It still leaves her there for a total of 5 days short of a month. If this jerk hurts her again I don't care how bad I'm hurting he is cruising for a bruising.
Then I start crafting again and feel pretty good about it but my shoulders hurt so bad I just want to sit there and cry. We went to my SIL's for Ran's birthday dinner tonight and going over bumps in the car hurt my shoulders so bad I would yelp out.
Basically right now I feel like I have a pitbull clomped on to each butt cheek and a drill going through each shoulder...but hey...I feel great! not!
Another thing to lump onto this is I keep getting dizzy...last year in August I was dizzy for the entire month and with all kinds of tests we never did figure it out. I am only getting a dizzy spell here and there but I sure don't want to be where I was last summer. I could barely walk around in my house everything was spinning so much. Sigh..when it rains it pours.
I guess these are why I'm not here too much, I do come and read and love to read but my heart just feels like I don't have much to offer anyone. I do love you all and miss you so I don't know why I can't override this dread that keeps me from posting like I used to.
Hopefully I can sort this out soon.
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