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"My son and I both have Juvenile Diabetes." (soapmaker)

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"I was alone and desperate with my disease when I found MDJunction. Finding so many great people that understood my illness and could relate the same feelings to me was a life saver. I now have many new friends here that help me out of my bad days and for that I am very THANKFUL!" (libit)

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Diary of a Black Rose

About My Life

im sorry...

Apr 25 2010

LeTtE-:   i have a confession....im sorry i lied to u. i didnt get high or anything i been home diz entire time, its just that ur smothering me and i dont like it at all, if i dont replybak to u its cuz im busy yet u continue to text me and i hate it, i dont like texting as much unless i really REALLY have to other than that im on the phone with people, i do 3way callings wit my cuzin and her friends, basically wut im saying is that idk if i can be wit sum1 who worries so much about me, im used to doing wut i want when i want and ONLY asking my aunt or mom for permission. im sorry.
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   i bearly talk to u, i talk to u maybe 10 minutes a day
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   i wont be around then
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   sorry...
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   - walks away -
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   do what u want...
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   n have a great life
-TwIzTiD LeTtE-:   KEnny...*grabs ur arm*im sorry!
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   - pulls away -
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   i bearly talk to u, i bearly say nething to u, i give u 5 months of not even doing nething with me, u hanging with this person or that person, never even doing 1 single thing with me, yea i txt u, cause u NEVER txt me unless i txt u first,
-TwIzTiD LeTtE-:   *lets go*im sorry, i got so damn used to having a life when we werent talking nor doing anything together last yr. im sorry, i cant be the perfect girl, im sorry i cant spend any time with u, im sorry im trying to focus on skewl to graduate on time, im sorry okay! IM FUCKING SORRY!!! :-\ :-\ :-\ :-\
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   im sorry..
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   rly am
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   and u know for a fact
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   that u coulda spent time with me but u always put ure friends first
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   so dont say u didnt spend time cause of school
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   i just cant take it nemore
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   im sorry
-TwIzTiD LeTtE-:   "friends are forever,boys are wutever!" luci, has been telling me that for da past month! :-\
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   well u got what u wanted
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   - just walks up to u as i gives u 1 final kiss and walks away -
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   goodbye brit
-TwIzTiD LeTtE-:   im sorry...
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   - nods -
-TwIzTiD LeTtE-:   *mumbles sumthing then walks away*
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   whatd u say...
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   im always here for u... always, trust me i talk bout u to everyone
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   im always gonna be here
-TwIzTiD LeTtE-:   *stops but doesnt turn to u*i said im always gunna love u im sorry i couldnt show it like u wanted but deep down i really do!*continues walking*good bye kenny.
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   i know u did... i really do..., ut u hurt me more then anyone ever has
-TwIzTiD LeTtE-:   im sorry.....:(
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   i just cant..
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   i started cutting again... cause of how ad it is...
-TwIzTiD LeTtE-:   im sorry keny.....
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   u have my cell number if u need me, ill always be here for u, but i just cant, im sorry i really am
-TwIzTiD LeTtE-:   ok.....bye
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   bye... im sorry i lost the feelings
-TwIzTiD LeTtE-:   *runs bak to u kissing ur cheek*im sorry,i love you good-bye!
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   - just holds u in my arms -
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   - not saying one word -
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   - gives u 1 final deep loving kiss as a tear runs down my face - goodbye...
-TwIzTiD LeTtE-:   *pulls away biting my lip as i walk away crying*bye.
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   - cries just continuing to hold u -
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   hopefully one day... ull see what u had was really good... and that u let go of the best thing ever...
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   u cheated on me... i forgave u... u kissed someone, i forgave u, u yelled at cursed and hit me... i forgave u... u lied to me constantly... i forgave u...u spent no time what so ever wtth me... i forgave u...im sorry...ut its to much...to much... to much...
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   just when u realize...a person needs to be treated with respect... and treated like a human being...u want to do what u want when u want...then i guess go find a crappy bf who dosen't care... idk...but yea... im gonna go...
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   i love u brittany miguel... so much more then ull ever know...
xXUre Worst NightmareXx:   goodbye...

Previous diary posts by xXBlackRoseXx:

too much to ask
something i wrote
Save her.... (Poem)
Tired of hurting you
add me on vampire freaks

I give up with you
The only good thing.....
Madly and Deeply in LOVE
idk
Fading away....

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