Diary of a Black Rose

I feel so alone... pretty much noone of my friends talk to me nemore, and idk y really, they said theyre just all to busy and i understand that but none of them really ever talk to me. the only personthat really ever talks to me is my ex lori but we dont talk all that much either.

 Ive been trying to crawl out of this dark hole, and keep my head above ground but it gets hard at night, gets hard to stay above the water, I just really wanna make some friends here that accept me and wanna get to know me, just to escape all of this and find a way out.

Ive wanted to cut again but i havent, ive been thinking bout it alot recently but see no reason to do it, i mean i guess thats good cause before id automatically do it now i just wanna but dont wanna if that makes sense....

I also feel as tho noone really accepts me being a girl, yea i have people telling me they do but i feel as tho its just words, and feel it would just been so much eaiser if i woulda been born "normal" like everyone wants...Its just so hard all the things I go through all the pain.

if anyone wants to be friends im more then happy to be friends with people..

 well i guess thats all i have to say

~ Lexi