Question...

So here I am back again...my son turned 19 yesterday...I got to see him and actually got to hug him!  First time I have been able to touch him since before Christmas...hard day, but an awesome day!  Stupid ex is taking me back to court AGAIN over custody...can't anyone stop stupid people???  I am told that there is nothing you can do about that...people can take you to court all they want....I just want to scream...LEAVE ME ALONE!  In fact, I think I will tell my attorney to make that statement to the judge!  May not help, but can't hurt...will make me feel better!  Stupid husband that YES, I am still married to!!!!  Will not agree to anything!  It has been 6 months since I left and all we have is a house!  That is it!!!!!  OMG!!!  Whatever!!!  Son is looking at 12 years...that is so hard to deal with...he probably won't be there that long, hopefully will get shock and be out by the first of next year, but just not knowing how long this is going to go on SUCKS!  I am healing nicely, though...I have taken up boxing...it is more of the training part of it, but it is an awesome to release the stress!!  All that on my plate and I can handle life.....apartment living is feeling like home now and making this place all ME!  Very good feeling....I'm still a bit shaky, though.  I have gone out with a few guys and talked to several...they are all the same....all after one thing...BUT I have one guy that keeps coming around over and over.....I really like him, but I don't trust him....I don't know if I can ever trust anyone....I don't know if I can ever completely let my guard down....I have this thing in me that says....don't trust, don't let that guard down...you know how it goes, you do and you ALWAYS end up getting hurt......my big question.....WILL I EVER BE ABLE TO TRUST SOMEONE ENOUGH AGAIN TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP?????